No worries! You Will be Remembered!

Not sure whose idea was this, these days when you go around in parks and public areas, you would see quite a few of these metal plates, in remembering someone. It is meant for usually donation of a certain kind and I often find them interesting to read (and even take photographs and keep record). Like the one above, Jacquie, at the age of 19, was accidently killed in the canyon below as she lay sunbathing on Friday afternoon of 20th August , 1982. She is remembered with love by her family and friends. If that accident did not take place that afternoon, she would be 46 years old now and ... ...

There are many twists in life that would provoke you to think "what if?" There are so many times in the past that we asked ourselves "what if ... this didn't happen? Or what if that happened?" No doubt, as I am also human beings, and we openly admit that we should not do things that we regret in life, but yet, we still ask this "what if" question from time to time, clearly knowing that the "what if" will not change the past, and possibly it may provide some insight to the future if we face the same scenario, but then circumstances will still be different, and result can be very different.

You may call this "the tension" between our two minds. On one side, we are rational and know exactly what we need and do precisely what's requested to do; on the other side, we think we are rational, we think we know what we need (but actually we know what we want, not need) and did not really act on what's requested/needed to do (and therefore we remain in the "dreaming" stage as we are uncomfortable to come out of our "comfort zone"). This tension between the two minds can be very disturbing, especially when you are in my situation, immobility with a few pain, ranging from general pain to unexpected acute pain, as the immobility gives you a lot of time to lay down (not sunbathing though), look around and enter deep thinking mode. While the different levels of pain will provoke your body to react to them and your thinking can go deeper than you usually are! Keep in mind that some of the "thinking" can be very messy and not well constructed. They can be just bits and pieces and the thinking is without framework, nor conclusive at the end. What's more scary is that if you don't control or manage your thinking, or the tension between the two minds, well enough, they can go out of track and cause a lot of damaging to your established thinking mode. If you are under such circumstances, you (your mind) would then need to take a good rest and stop thinking for a moment (e.g. reading a good book, talking to someone, watching a movie, or praying and meditation, etc.).

Or there is a short-cut, like in my case, I simply pray to God and leave everything to HIM to define. Call me naive, childish, blind religious, or whatever you like. Just like the case of Jacquie, "No worries! As you will be remembered!"